Dreary,foggy March day in the mountains. It's the kind of day where you contemplate staying in bed all day reading and writing and watching old movies. It is Sunday and so I think I can get away with it but then there is the constant nagging push to get out there and make something happen. Ira and I have finally agreed to do another restaurant. I have been wanting this for so many years. I always knew that there was another one up our sleeve but his negative feelings of those hard living years have always canceled me out. Now out of necessity he is changing his mind. His timing isn't the greatest with this rotten economy but then we never do things the easy way which usually makes it that much more rewarding. Our battle seems to be finding the location. I have a vision for what I want and so far it is not forthcoming. Several weeks ago we even took a trip to Fla.to see if perhaps that perfect spot in my mind was in a warmer climate and though we had a great little vacation, we ended up back where we started. We feel more at home here in the mountains where we have lived for over 30 years and people know us and our reputation and so unless God gives us a different vision, I think we will continue our search right here. In the meantime we piddle around with Ira and Josh's car lot which is not producing much and wait for Divine direction!!

This rocky time of uncertainty is producing some interesting effects. Funny how money or the lack of it can stop you in your tracks. I feel like we are reverting to the enthusiasm of our beginning years where we were all about the excitement of living on faith that God was mapping out a new frontier. Sometimes we get too comfortable with resting on what we have accomplished instead of looking at what lies ahead. I frankly love the thought of those innocent, faith filled years of trusting God for our daily bread. We never had one thought that He wouldn't provide our every need and He never let us down. We proudly recall those times of supply and it was and always has been our testimony of this life in the Spirit. So here we are again....a few years older but really only stronger in our faith. This time our vision selfishly might include some of my adult children which makes me smile. How great would it be to have your children and grandchildren all a part of this business of my dreams. They most certainly would be more helpful than the first time around when they were children. We even have musical talent to provide the entertainment. Ben was just here for spring break and I took some shots of him and his guitar one sunny afternoon. He and Josh are the poets and music makers in the family and hopefully they will carve out a path of expression in that direction.
I love this song that Ben wrote and asked him to write some of the words to it in my journal. I find many of his songs hard to forget with beautiful melody and poetic verse.




Lord take this open mind
Lead me to finer times
Help me be all that I am.

Help me to see the lies
Read fine between the lines
Help me be all that I am.

I watch the leaves all fall
I try to catch them all

Lord make this appetite
Grow more with every bite
Feed me with all of your plans.

Help me to let you lead
See you in everything
I'll see it more in your hands.

I watch the leaves all fall
I try to catch them all
I watch the leaves all fall.

Isn't that beautiful?? I love my family and look forward to the future where we all will come into the true expression of all that we are in Him.